Friday, January 18, 2008
The world is too fragile for people to be untrue.I find some sort of comfort in reading all my back dated posts, see where Ive been, where Ive come to and realised that everythings still stagnant.You know how they say "Everything will fall to place, just wait."Well cant things just fall faster?There's something I like about being high. Heck everyone likes that feeling, but its that feeling where your body feels semi paralysed and you're neither here nor there. Where the voices in your head finally discoveres silence and that you dont feel anything. Now thats the part that I love, that you dont feel anything, you know its there, but it doesnt matter enough to actually be affected by it. To scream, shout, cry, anything. Just anything to let it out. And how everything just slows down, but this time its bearable to go through it.Its the feeling of finally finding peace thats causing me my studies and everything everyone's counting on me for."I learned to drown my sorrows, but my sorrows learned how to swim." There comes a point when you just cant take it, where just one shitty thing added to everything else thats been going on just breaks you."The world is too fragile for people to be untrue, too much is at stake." Thank you, you dumbshit. Mucho gracias.On a lighter note, I swear with that new look, my temptation to push you to the wall and kiss you has taken on a new level.And so Ive created a new new years resolution- Pash **** and Im 1 down and 2 more to go on my other resolution. Bring on the next two, although I already have someone in mind.