Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Love will tear us apart.Is it the sea you hear in me?Its dissastisfaction.Or the voice of nothing?Its going to be OK -Bren-I wish time would take me to a more benign moment. Its not that Im not happy or that Im sad. Its more of a feeling of nothing-ness rather than a feeling of emptiness. Cause fact is, I feel nothing. I am emotionless.Its not the question of being happy that's hard, its the expectation of being happy that is so hard on me. Cause in everyone's eyes, I have everything. And yet, I sit here, having nothing, feeling nothing... et cetera. Do you follow?'I love the way you live so intensely, every minute of life. Unlike me'I dont see what you see in life, or love or anything for that matter. All I see is that we'll all just lose it to time in the end. So whats the point? Whats the God Damn point?Someone please save me.Sigh. Give me someone like Henry deTamble. (The time traveler's wife) His got this sort of simplicity and a sense of poetic elegance about him. I need simplicity. I yearn for it.Am tired of the fake smile I have to plaster on everyday. So no more. This is how you'll see me from now on. Quiet with a vacant stare.I've lost my heart, I burried it too deep,Under the iron sea. -Keane-