Sunday, October 01, 2006
The Game of Love.I know Ive been bloggin intensely these few days, and I really dont care if anyone actually reads it. I just need a place to rant.Cheri's fallen too deep in her heart broken misery to pay any attention to me. Bren's to overwhelmed in her own episode and self-misery-post-maniac-depression (mostly caused by me) and Leen's just too far away. And all I want, is someone to listen/talk to.Why does everyone lie? Everyone who lies to me, either think they're protecting me by hiding the truth. Or they just lie because they're too afraid to come face to face with all the problems that coheres with the truth. And all I want is just the simple fact of knowing the truth.I want someone who wont lie to me, no matter how sick, twisted and hurtful the truth might be. I want someone who wont live up to my so called expectations, just to save them from rejection. I just want someone who's fkin real.So im stuck here, re-reading Prozac Nation and sinking back to what I used to be (saved for the past 2 months) when all I want, is prolly for someone to just call and save me from myself.Any takers? Im single, available and apparently very vulnerable. Meh. I should just go and marry the ice cream guy.