Saturday, September 30, 2006
How can you hide from something that never goes away?I fell asleep crying last night, overwhelmed with all the emotions and having felt so relieved after pouring out secret letters ive kept for so long. But then, waking up I could feel it hammering into me all over again like a sledge hammer. Drilling into me like a corkscrew. And then i realised, how can we hide from something that never goes away?So in between sobs, cries and sms-es I figured that whatever Im gonna go, its gonna be for me. And no one else, Im sick and tired of conforming and pleasing everyone, that I ignore myself. And when ive made it, im gonna head downtown and get myself a fkin Chanel.'What I really need, what im really looking for, is not something I can articulate. Its's nonverbal: I need love. I need the thing that happens when your bain shuts off and your heart turns on' -Prozac Nation-